halloween

so yesterday was halloween and it was horrifying never had so many kids trick or treating at my place with the decorations everywhere aka cobweb on door and tree also bushes and zombie warning sigh with skeleton and frankenstein posters on the windows  with grave at the front with halloween flag post and pumpkin lights and another cobweb inside and skeleton lights with blood table cloth with scary noises at the background welcome to my halloween haunted house anyway i usually dress up as alessa from silent hill aka the reaper every halloween but sadly im growing out of her character when im like her i feel and think what she feels and thinks have the sorta same story but deffs want my revenge on the enemy's me and her are like twins yass like yes we had jack latin but it was off and mouldy ffs that effort for nothing meh let the evil spirits come to me

why is it hard to find love

honestly no one cares about love now and all they have and wanted in there minds is sex they use you for what they want and leave then say this lying excuse of why he or she left you when none of its true if you want a loyal girl or boy then be loyal yourself also find someone that does it for fun not like us who gets sick and disgusted of what the world comes too

sorrynotsorry

if you're not drinker don't drink bloody heaps omg like when your blind drunk you so keen for anything think before do anything honestly your life is risking on you i have to look after my friend for that night don't went to far please look after yourself please i care anyway

the reason by christina jane

the reason by chri$tina jane 

(intro)
i want you know the reason why i left hope you understand so listen

see i loved you since day one i want to be the only one in you heart im always getting hurt  in love you have to take me out that phrase
can't face the fact that i keep pushing you away with everyone else im not selfish but this how i say and express myself you gotta 
understand the reason i want you to take it serious cuz we going to last til the end no matter what the fights we had felt so bad
i can feel your pain and hear the words you're saying then i look at the picture especially the video saying to myself that we 
belong together yeah you get me angry and that times really hate you then i can't get rid of you cuz i love you so much
if i did it'll tore me apart i think boys are thirsty for things they want thats a thot and desperate which one reason we 
went separate

i being stressing in depression can't even dress without breaking down because anorexia got me anxious fuck this anxiety got me shaken
i want to stand tall not against the wall but now i falling deeply having nightmares instead of dreams just want you beside me holding me tight through
the night making me alright just bring me back to light so why you're blaming yourself thinking its just you when it's everyone else i did it too why so blue 
you have no clue but this is the reason why i left you 

go outside thinking i was fine but the words repeat on my mind people wondering im wearing black all the time  well im in the darkness i put you first cuz you all 
i can think off but im sinking and drowning don't wanna die i just want to feel alive and try this is always my fault stop ruining your life and i'll come running
back to you i always stay true and stick to you you're my one and only on my mind and heart who cares what happen you think i don't love and care when i tried my best 
to be with you when you're offline wish your online begging you talk  


i being stressing in depression can't even dress without breaking down because anorexia got me anxious fuck this anxiety got me shaken
i want to stand tall not against the wall but now i falling deeply having nightmares instead of dreams just want you beside me holding me tight through
the night making me alright just bring me back to light so why your blaming yourself thinking its just you when its everyone else i did it too why so blue 
you have no clue but this is the reason why i left you (x2) 


cant you understand i right your name everywhere want to hold you hand and be family a future holds but we have to take time and be alright cuz i love you want 
this pain of my chest so i can rest in piece and pick up the pieces and put the memories back i see them everyday makes my 
day and makes me smile ill walk a hella mile to see you smile i want to be best thing to happen to you


just want you to understand the reason its not you its me xo